Day 27: My Far Away Love

DAY 27: March 31, 2009

Hi.. How’s the love of my life doing? Taking a rest already? How’s your dinner? What did you do during your Admin Time? Did they make you to squat again? I’d just finished watching Chapter 9 of One Tree Hill Season Six. Nothing much happened to me today, other than office work and much of a whole time thinking and missing you.

Haay being so far away from you has really been hard, i know it’s much harder for you but I’m continuously praying that God would continue to strengthen us. I am continuously thanking our Lord for blessing both of us for the past 27 days. I prayed that this will be the hardest thing we have ever had to go through. Yes, I miss you and can't wait till you come home to be able to wrap my arms around you and hold you close to my heart. I just want you to know that I will be here as long as it will take; one thing I want you to know is I love you and you will forever be in my heart. Mahal na Mahal poh kita.. Miss na miss na kita asawa ko...

Day 26: March 30, 2009
Lan ko, musta na poh? I hope everything work well with you this Monday. I waited for your call last night but for whatever reason you were not able to call me i assure you that i understand. I am some what worried to cause at 12;38 am i received a frank caller, he said his name is Merio but i can’t remember any Merio na naka chat ko before. There are voices from in the background and i even heard Carol’s name was mentioned. I just told him that I’m not interested and i’m already asleep. Well i got worried baka its just a trap from your Training Officer, naisip ko baka nahuli kayo while trying to sneak out. Well I hope not I just prayed the you got so tired and was not able to give me a call.
I have a manic Monday this morning but was able to manage everything and was able to push through with the opening of our newest branch here in Malolos. I forgot to mention to you yesterday I had a flat tire after worship. Fortunately Clark helped me to replace my tire. That’s why before we ( me, bule, tj and bless ) went to Ocean Park I had my tire vulcanized. My AC broke down again making it hard for me to drive, pero naging okei na rin naman midway of our drive. We met JR at Ocean Park and after my Ocular Inspection with the area we went to San Miguel @ the Bay and have our photo shoot there. I’ll be attaching some of our photos here. JR keeps mentioning how he misses you. Actually we all misses you well especially me..
Mine, i know that at this time in both of our lives, we are surrounded by possibilities of choice, open doors and wide horizons, which I know, may come between us. But I also know and hope that they could eventually bring us together, with both of us being better people for the time we spent apart. And even though you are far away, you're all that I can see, I carry you with me through all my days and I miss you more than I can say. Also, Lan, remember this - I love you no less than if you were right here now. Mahal na Mahal po kita

DAY 25: MY HEART LONG 4 4EVER

DAY 25: March 29, 2009

My heart is overflowing with joy this Sunday afternoon, as i was able to hear your voice again. It’s such a wonderful feeling to be able to talk to you. Your voice has warmed my heart and has filled my heart with contentment again. You just don’t know how much my heart longs for you.

My heart truly longs to leap at the sound of your voice (and it did kena). My heart longs to see our love grow stonger each day. My heart longs to be comforted, as you lovingly kiss and caress my bare arms. My heart longs to feel the love and joy of us cuddling and snuggling each other. And I just wish I could pour it all out, all my heart longs for.. when you call me again tonight.. I’ll be waiting for your call mine.. I love you so much...

Day 24: Saving Forever

DAY 24: March 28, 2009

Happy Saturday Mine, How are you? Have able to receive my package for you? R u reading some of my blogs na? Haay I hope so. I just got home from a not so fine day with Bule Pitek and TJ. Anyways I still enjoy it though Buleigh is really pissed off what happened to her photo shoot today. But in my own opinion I think she has no reason to do so. Eh alam mo naman yun.. if she gat yamot.. yamot na yamot.I’d just hope and pray that she’ll learn more to handle the situation and be professional in handling her disappointments. I still manage to have a great time even though I was able to spend P900 bucks for a box of Pizza..(at least I was able to treat myself) even if it so init while 2 hrs waiting for Piteks Doctora. Still manage to keep a joyful heart. I have dysmenorrhoea this morning so I was not able to attend our Singles D group but I managed to finish my Breaking Free journal.

Haay Mine.. I miss you, i didn’t know how many times I’ve uttered it today. I want to be with you and hold you. I want to gently touch your face and cup your cheek as I look into your eyes. I want to snuggle and hug you, just to be close to you. I want to hold your hands. I want to lie next to you and gaze into your eyes while i rub your back. I want you to know hoe great you are in my eyes. I want you to know how much i cherish you and above all how i want to give my forever with you... i’m saving it all for you... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..

Day 23: Nth Day of Missing You

Day 23: March 27, 2009

Miss na kita Mine.. Musta ka na po mahal ko? How’s your training this Friday? Feeling tired and exhausted tonight? Just continue praying okei? Have more patience and always delight yourself untothe Lord, I assure you that Lord would continue to provide you strength and endurance all through out your training. I wake up this morning with a joyful heart, i don’t know why? But God seems to impress in my heart that He has taken care of everything and that I need not to worry about my very Best Friend, YOU..

I thank God for lifting my spirit all through out this afternoon. My heart is over flowing with God’s love and the love that we have shared for the past 8 months. I know this would be the Nth that I will say I miss you, but i will say it again I miss you Lan. I care for you with all my heart. I long for you to be home. I longed to see your love and the adoration in your eyes. I longed to feel the comfort and the peace of your loving arms. I longed to feel the love and desire of your tender touch. I longed to be surrounded by your love and to draw strength from you. I longed to hold you close and never let you go.

Mahal na Mahal po kita..

Day 22: Not the Same Without You

Day 22: March 26, 2009

Hi Allan! How’s your Thursday? Did it rain there? It’s kinda rainy all day here in Bulacan and also around the Metro. Id been on field all day and make an ocular inspection with some of the location that Ms. Vickie is offering me. Thanks God for providing us a fine weather today that why it’s not that hard to do field work. And I hope you to enjoy the weather.

This is the first time that I was able dropped by your house again. And I felt a rush of sadness cause I missed seeing you waiting for me in your front porch. Your place is not the same with out you.. My rainy Thursday is not the same without you.. I miss you so much.. It seems time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love. Without you the day seem so long and the night seems longer..

But even though you may not be here with me, holding me close, telling me sweet nothing and loving me without end. One thing I promise you no matter what happens my heart will always be here waiting for you to be in my arms again. Mahal na mahal kita Mine...

Day 21: Be Home Soon

Day 21: March 25, 2009

Hi Mine.. How’s your Wednesday? How’s your training? Having a hard time again? I hope not.. Just keep on praying I’m backing you up on Him with my daily devotion.

I was not able to finish my work today cause of severe back pains. I have this since Sunday, and because of this I decided to take a rest after lunch. While having my rest i received a call from another Korean Company currently situated in Angeles Pampanga, it seems they are looking for Milko but fortunately I was able to get there call. They want us to supply ice cream for their Bunwich. I hope this one would really materialize. This afternoon Cajucom Kids have their pictorial with Buleigh. I know you miss them, they’re missing you to especially Angel. I’ll be attaching some of their cute photos here. I also edmy blog entries so I could drop it in your place tomorrow.

Besides those things, I did three important things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you. If only my arms could be around you now.. so I could let you know that sweet thoughts of our moments together are always on my mind and kept my hope alive that you’ll be home for me soon. I’m still wishing you weren’t so far away.. I love you Mine.. I’m just here waiting for you to be home...

Day 20: Sweetest Message

Day 20: March 24, 2009 Hi Mine, thanks for the sweetest message that i have received from you though we have shared sweet messages before this one il be treasuring forever, for it is the 1st sweet message i have received from you since we’ve been apart. I know that you felt the same way last Sunday, the regret of not being able to express any sweet words to each other. I thank you for making an effort to send that message to me. I was in MOA when I received that message. I’m with Aiza, the 2 kids, Edjie and Sharon. We we’re playing with the slot machine before i read your message, we we’re very determined to earn the free 50 tickets that we bet P200.00 for it. And when we finally earned it that’s when i learned that i earned more happiness today.. because of the short message that you’ve sent. I hope that you have also received my message. I have decided that i’ll be sending all my blog entries to you on Sat. I’ll call your mom tomorrow if she knew someone who will be part of the 2nd batch of Team Building this sat. I want you to read this na. I almost forgot to mention mine, my renewed passport was release today. After DFA we had our merienda at HOOTERS i attached our pictures taken this afternoon. I hope you were there with us, and sabi din ni Edjie kena sana nandito rin si Tito A. I miss you so much.. WE MISS YOU A LOT.. I love you so much... WE LOVE YOU A LOT.. WE BELIEVE IN YOU MINE.. WE KNOW YOU COULD MAKE IT...

Day 19: Loving You More Each Day

Day 19: March 23, 2009

Ei Mine.. Feel kinda tired and sleepy this Manic Monday. I don’t know why? Still feeling tired of my two day trip to Ternate, though its all worth it naman. I went jogging with Dad this morning, my first time to ride on his Montero. At breakfast i was able to share with Aiza, Mama and Edjie my (all in all) 20 mins. weekend with you. I was able to chat with Bule and Betch, they asked if your still short, dark and shinny/glossy. I told them mas gwapo ka ngaun.. hehe.. No Kidding Mine, you look good with your new built and you look like a fine soldier with your uniform.
This is my 1st day not to take any rice. I promise myself to cut off carbs cause it seems my everyday exercise is not working on me if I continue to eat my meal with rice. Mine I hope your still eating well and i hope and pray that the Lord would provide you more strength and endurance all through out your training.

I hope that you were able to beat the heat today as you marched your way to the Dining Hall. I hope you had a great meal today and i hope that meal has able to nourish your body. I hope you will have a great sleep and dream of me as you end your day. I miss you so much mine. Sweet memories we had keep peeking on my mind from time to time. Your still the one Lan.. and will always be..

DAY 17 & 18: Happy Weekend

Day 17 to 18: March 22 and 23, 2009

It was really nice to see you again mine. Finally the many questions that been bugging me for the past 16 days has been answered. And my prayers last Friday were also answered. Id never imagine na ganun ka namin kalapit makikita and makakausap, your Mom, Jon and I agreed that our trip to Ternate has been “SULIT” na. Your Mom didn’t even have to use her authority for us to see you. But God had made a way. I was sleeping yesterday when God seems to wake me up. It was God who made me notice na Barber Shop pla yung katabi ng room that we’re staying. And that’s when I noticed you waving at me and I’m sorry that it took time for me to realize it was you. It was God that told me to go back to my room for me to know that you we’re there taking a bath. Mine, God has proven again that He has perfect timing for everything and up to now I am still praising Him and Thanking Him for the opportunity that He has given me this short yet meaningful weekend with you and your family.

Id never thought Mine that I could handle my emotions that I was not able to say I miss you so much and how much I love you (though i wanted too... ) I was also able to control myself not to hold and kiss you (though i’m dying to do so...) Maybe it’s really a matter of mind setting. And I am so afraid that you would be penalized or be sanctioned if i do so. Mine I’m sorry if i was not able to give you a kiss this morning, i really wanted to but i was just so afraid mine. Mine sana if i was not able to tell you how much i love you sana naramadaman mo na i really do and i still do and i am loving you more each day. (haayy naiiyak na nman ako..) I hope i could send all of my blog entries to you next Saturday I pray that God would find me away. Mahal na mahal poh kita. Miss na miss nap oh kita Take care always and keep on praying and holding on to our God.

Day 16: Can't Wait to See You

Day 16: March 20, 2009



Ei Mine. It's Dad 60th bday today. We have a party downstairs but felt so tired and exhausted that i decided to call it a night. And maaga din kasi kami aalis ng mom and jon for ternate cavite tom. Just finished packing my things. Haay i hope to see you tomorrow even from afar. I know its impossible to asked but i wish your mom could find a way para makapagkita and makapagusap tyo bukas.. I hope I'm still the one inside your heart. hehe.. I know you'll get angry if you read this part.


Its soaring hot today. I went this morning at Trinoma to buy Daddy's Gift and like the other day, driving under the strong heat of the sun had made me feel so exhausted. After Trinoma I went to CCF to prepare the ice cream and the freezer for tonight Singles Night. Bawi ko na rin un for I was not able to attend due to Dad's Bday. We had Thanks Giving mass this afternoon held in our house then blessing na rin ng Montero ni Daddy. Dad has a live balladeer singing downstairs and tomorrow there will be a second part for Gumitna Family.

I can't wait to see you again mine. And I pray that God would find a way for us to see each other again. I feel so sleepy mine.. Just see you tomorrow.. Miss na miss na kita... I love you so much mine..

Day 15 : Picture of You

Day 15: March 19, 2009

Ei Mine... id just finish organizing some of my pictures, pictures from my graduation, pictures from my ojt, pictures of gimik days when i was 21, 22 and 23. Haay time has flown so fast, it seems like yesterday and now I’m 26 and happily engaged to my 2Lt Alfred John Trinidad. I’m starting to appreciate more each new day that passed by for God is providing me things to do as I wait for you. I think my day is becoming more and more fruitful each day.

How about you mine? How’s your training? Having a hard time? Still having your class? Nagdinner ka na ba? How is it? Nabusog ka ba? I hope so. I hope you’re able to have a good night rest in your barracks. Sabagay.. MASA ka nga pala..

I feel sleepy as i make this entry but keeping myself awake cause I planned to continue reading Book 6 after I publish this. I almost forgot Dad’s Montero came today. I’ll attach the picture later. 30 days to go na lang... il be able to hear your voice again.. I miss you so much mine. I can’t wait for you to be right here next to me. Anyways I heard this song this afternoon and can't help but wish that your the one who's singing this song to me..

Right Next to Me
Good bye, it’s time for me to go.
I’ll call you in the morning so I can let you know.
I know it hasn’t been easy to love a man like me.
Someday if we try there will be no goodbyes,
and we will live happily.

Cause I’ll be there one day and
you’ll be right next to me.
I’ll be there one day and you
will be right next to me.

Hey there, will you be where I am?
Will you be by my side girl, or with another man?
Just wait a little longer, girl I don’t know how long.
Just try to understand this is not what I planned.
I’m sorry this had to be.

Oh girl, every man needs a woman.
You’re the woman that I choose and I
can’t afford to lose you baby.
I’ll be there one day and you will be right next to me.
I’ll be there one day and you will be right next to me.

I swear to the world, you’ll always be my girl.
Just say you’ll be, right next to me.

I’ll be there one day And you’ll be right next to me

And if you’re singing this song to me I’ll tell you this that No matter what happened. what ever trial we will face i’ll be there right next to you.. as your very best friend, as your ever loving wife and as your number 1 fun. Mahal na mahal poh kita.

Day 14: Beauty of the Setting Sun

Day 14: March 18, 2009

Ei Mine.. Nagdinner ka na? I hope you did. Do you still have class? How’s your training? What’s your activity today? Learning how to use a gun already? Its been an exhausting day for me, but i’m happy cause i was able to survive another day with out you.. Id just got in my room, Edjieth is having his birthday party downstairs. I felt really tired today so i decided not to join the inuman wanna know why?

I’m now handling AR again so i have an additional work load since yesterday. After lunch i went to my field work alone i drove all the way to Angeles and picked up my new check book then went to Quezon City. The strong heat wave had made me feel so exhausted, hindi kinaya ng AC ng sasakyan ang init. After my meeting with Largeformatix uumuwi na k0 . I was on my way home around 5:30 as i was driving i can’t help but noticed the setting sun. Have you noticed it mine? It was so big and orange na orange.. i even tried to take a picture of it so I could attached it here pero d maganda kuha ko eh. I wished that you were there with me so you would witness the wonderful grace of God through the setting sun. Part of our wedding song suddenly played in my mind.

Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

I’ve seen a beautiful setting sun today.. and yes it did end a perfect day, tough your not here with me I feel and happy and hopeful that under the setting sun there we’re two lovers waiting to be together again.. to be in each other arms again. I miss you so much Allan.. I love you so much.

Day 13: Dream of Me

Day 13: March 17, 2009
Allan ko... Musta na poh.. How’s your training. Did it rain there? It’s been a rainy Tuesday here and kinda hard to work because the weather makes us sleepy the whole afternoon. But still I prayed that you have experienced the wonderful grace of God through the rain. I hope you had a great time during your training.
You know what? Ever since that we’ve been a part there was never a night that I didn't dreamt of you. Mejo kainis lang the other night cause i dreamt of you having another girl and just last night i dreamt of being bitten by two dogs. I don’t want to worry about it. I’d just pray that may the Lord continue to protect our relationship through this season of trials of being miles away from each other. When i was in the office i heard this song from 94.70 “Dream of Me” by Kirsten Dunst. I haven’t heard this song for quite awhile and when i heard it this afternoon i told myself.. Just a perfect song for both of us.. I don’t know if you knew this song but i hope i will be able to sing it to you when you finally read my blog. Well here it is..

DREAM OF ME

Let me sleep
For when I sleep I dream that you are here

You’re mine
And all my fears are left behind

I float on air. T
he nightingale sings gentle lullabys

So let me close my eyes
And sleep Per chance to dream

So I can see the face I long
to touchTo kiss

But only dreams can bring me this

So let the moon
Shine softly on the boy I long to see

And maybe when he dreams

He’ll dream of me
I’ll hide beneath the clouds

And whisper to the evening stars

They tell me love is just a dream away

Dream away (echo 3x)

I’ll dream away

So let the moon Shine softly on the boy

I long to seeAnd maybe when he dreams

He’ll dream of me Oooohhh Dream of me

May you dream of me Mine.. Miss na miss na kita.. Mahal na mahal pa rin kita

Day 12: Miss You Like Crazy

Day 12: March 16, 2009
Hello Mine.. Kamusta ka na poh... I hope everything is doing fine in your training. Super itim na ba? Anyways i will still love you no matter what. I miss you mine...

My Monday turned out well. I didn’t do any field work today i’d just stay in the office and do some filling and following up some inquiries. Have some good news.. Daddy will be buying a new car ( sa wakas ndi na ko mauubusan ng sasakyan) and Mama finally bought a new fridge yesterday. That’s why before going home I did my monthly contribution... Groceries.. It’s hard not to miss your pagiging makulit when we’re doing our groceries. I was not able to buy bangus cause i need your expertise in choosing one.. Can’t help again but wish you’re there to help me pick the fresh one. During lunch mama is already asking our budget for our wedding and who would be our couturier. I told her how much is our budget and about our 50/50 sharing on the expense. And she seems please that everything is planned well. Well i hope everything will turn out fine. Id just realize that from this date on it’ll be 9 months to go.. hehe.. I just can’t wait to be Mrs. Aprillyn C. Trinidad. I Love You Mine..

Haay I wish i could say it to you out loud.. Been missing you badly.. Been half crazy of not being able to talk to you.. not being able to kiss you, not being able to feel your touch, your hugs... that’s why i’m leaving you with this song.. “It’s your smile, your face, your lips that I miss.. those sweet little eyes that stares at me and make me say I’m with you through all the way.. Cause it you who fills the emptiness in me. It changes everything you see.. when i know i’ve got you with me... Mine mahal na mahal kita.. I’m just right here waiting for you to be home...

Day 11: Tattoed

Day 11: March 15, 2009

Ei Mine.. I just got home, we went swimming at 8 waves this afternoon. I’m with Aiza, Edjie, the 2 kids, Gbert and Bless, still remember her? We had fun especially with the kids. My Kakikayan strikes again, hehe, I’ve got henna and nail art.. I attached the photos here. Nice Henna right with our special number in it. When we are having fun in the wave pool, I can’t help but miss you. If you’re there with me I know that you’ll hug me as we thrilled and have fun with the waves. I know that if you we’re there you’ll make fun of Pitok as he look like a drift wood na dinadala ng wave sa shore hehe.. If you we’re there I know that you’ll play with ajith and angel at the children’s pool or even carry angel while playing with the waves. Haay those are the moments that i wish your there with me Mine.

This morning I went to church at 8 am, the single ladies (us) we’re assigned to usher because all the Leaders and Ushers were in Baguio for the couples retreat. I was happy serving the Lord, all of us we’re wearing dress and we look good as we sat in the front row during the Worship Service. It was a Video Message by Rick Warren, author of Purpose Driven Life. The message is good it’s about Leadership and Stewardship. Tackles the leadership of Moses, how he serve the Lord by surrendering and offering to him the only thing that was on his hand and that is his walking stick which represents, his talents, his income, his asset, and his personality. And that’s how you could serve the Lord wholeheartedly offering everything that you have as pleasing sacrifice. We sang again Lord I offer my Life to you and once again I cried while praying and singing this song. I poured my heart in prayer again offering to him all of our hopes and our plans. I also prayed that the Lord have talked to you through Sir Ros or Father. I hope you had a great Sunday...

I miss you Lan, I miss going to church with you, I miss worshiping our Lord with you, I miss our Sunday.. I miss you every single day Mine... Your smile is tattooed on my mind...

Day 10: Right Here Waiting

10th Day: March 14, 2005

How are you mine? Macho Gwapito na ba? How’s your training today? Are u on your jungle survival training na?

This morning I was able to run farther and longer. Hopefully before your Graduation i could already jogged around Manila Memorial non-stop. I saw Krystal jogging there this morning (and the other day) but I’m not that sure kung siya nga iyon. I went to work at around 9 am and have a short meeting with our current auditor and one representative from BIR. She will help us settle our obligations with them. After that I went to see your mom in San Juan, just brought your bag and have a short kamustahan/kwentuhan and have lunch there. Then I went to BDO then went home. We we’re supposed to go swimming but Buleigh Family cancelled it and move it tomorrow. Did it rain there? It rained here pero sandali lang. Ate Bambi was here during lunch and we have a short kwentuhan, I was surprise to see my mom for the very first time excited with our wedding. She asked what is our motif, who are our secondary sponsors and she seem please to know that it’ll be a Military Wedding. Praise God! (mejo nagbabago na siya)

I was starting to read Book 6 again but got sleepy, I was about to take my nap when I Marco txt me to checked my email for the revisions of the Buttercups lay-out. I was able to chat (using our Face Book ) with my old friend back in H.S. who is currently taking her Residency (Ophthalmologist) at V.Luna. Small world, she told me that one of her colleagues is currently taking M.O.T too.. You know Darwin? forgot the surname.. she’s still thinking if she’ll grab the opportunity to, we might go out next week with her twin sister who's also a Physician and who's also my friend. I was also able to chat with Gilda Joy, (if matuloy) I’m going to meet her in London this May. At 5:00 this afternoon I became a “TAONG BAHAY” again (huh.. babawi ako tom..) I just finished watching Popoy and Basha (your favourite movie.. Joke... ) before making this entry.

Haaayyyy 35 days to go na lang.. we’ll be able to talk again. I miss you so much Lan.. i miss our Saturday, just hanging out at your Lola’s place. I miss eating Tokwa, Banana Cue and Fish Ball with you. It’s quite hard but by God’s grace I’m getting use to it. And I’m not that lonely anymore, its just that I can’t stop missing you.. I missed everything about you. Sweet memories kept my heart alive.. I love you Allan... for always...

Day 9: Crazy Being Apart

Day 9: March 13, 2009

Hi Mine.. How’s your Friday the 13th? I hope you we’re able to keep a joyful heart this Hot Friday the 13th. And i hope hindi ka inabot ng bad luck like what happened to us today.
I’m so tired and exhausted as i make my 9th day entry, i just arrived from Manila, Aiza and I renewed our passport (yayabang yabang pa ko d ba? Paso din naman pala yung passport ko..) We just found out this week, we might go to London this May 17. I am hoping and praying na our schedule would not over lapse. That’s why I’ll be asking your mom tomorrow what would really be the date of your Graduation. I hope we still have time to go out on a vacation before May 17 and hope we could still celebrate my bday together. Haay I really feel so tired mine and grateful for the only bad luck that i have encountered today is that we came late on our appointment this afternoon at DFA because of the traffic then we have to walked under the strong heat of the sun. I thanked God na okei na yung ganung kamalasan.

Attached in my 9th entry is a picture of me this morning. A picture of me joyfully waiting for you Mine. I thank God for He has able to renew my spirit and not to focus so much on our current situation. Not to focus on the distance that have set us apart or even the silence that had keep us more apart. But focus more on the Love that He has showered upon us that help us sustain the Love that we have for each other. Once in a while i can’t help but smile and somehow laugh (alone) when i remember some of the funny moments that we had. On our scrap book there was a part there that’s called “Crazy Little Things Called Love” i’m having a hard time recalling the craziest thing that happened to us, the craziest thing that we ever did and the very first thing that made us go crazy and burst into laughter.. and i hope you we’re here so i could really picked out the craziest moment we’ve had.

I know mine that you already knew this but I still would like you to know that that my life has been more exciting since you and i became “us”... You have that kind of magic that really bring out the best in me. And i will always thank you for all the support that you have given me from the past 8 months. And i really do miss that.. I hope in anyway possible i was able to show you how proud i am having you as my fiancé, the love of my life, my very dear friend, my super hero and soldier and my number 1 fun (and i’m yours too...) I love you mine.. I hope you stay unchanged. Love you dearly, my 2Lt Alfred John Trinidad.

Day 8: Our 12th Day

Day 8: March 12, 2009

Happy 8th Monthsary Mine.. i hope you didn’t forget our special day.. The whole morning has been gloomy for me. I can’t help it mine, i know you’ll get angry if ever you see me that way. But i can’t help it I’m missing you badly and I can’t seem to find an outlet for my loneliness. I’m dying to hear from you, I miss your morning txt, your I Love Yous, I miss your “pangungulit” and “kababuyan”, I miss your “paglalambing”, I miss your hugs and kisses.. There was a time that I almost txt you “i miss you” today then I realize that there’s no way I could send it to you. Guess that’s the hardest part of it cause I’m restrained on doing and expressing it to you.. Through my loneliness I feel so sleepy but still manage to do my work.

And Thank God for giving me the time after lunch to sleep my loneliness away.. I thank God for comforting me again and He let me rest on His lap, assuring me that I should not weary for everything will be fine.. He’s under control.. I was able to go back to work with joyful heart again. I was able to finish my work to and was able to received 50% payment from a new Franchisee. Indeed, God had finished the Day for me.

On our 8th Monthsary, i want you to know that though we’re far apart you are always in my heart. Bear in mind that my heart is full of our sweet memories that i promise to keep forever. Mahal na mahal kita mine.. I hope you we’re able to keep a joyful heart to on this very special day.. Love you so much.. Miss na miss na kita.. Happy 8th Monthsary.

Day 7: Lover's Moon

Day 7: March 11, 2009

Gandang Wednesday to you Mine, how’s your training doing? Learning new things already? I hope that you didn’t have a hard time on your training today. Its been cloudy this morning while I jogged around Manila Memorial, I praise God and prayed that the same clouds is over Ternate Cavite. Before hitting my field work I settled my FG Loan then after lunch i went to Manila meet with Ms Vickie. We had a short meeting with SM Save More Leasing, I hope my concept will be approve.

I was on my way home when I suddenly felt hush of sadness, I realized that 7 days have passed and I’m missing you badly mine. I was in Buendia when i saw the buildings of Fort Bonifacio and i realized that it has been a week already when we had our One Fine Day there, when we bid our “till then..” Part of me was happy having to cherish those sweet memories but part of me was also sad cause you’re not here to cherish it with me. I’m officially missing you Allan... And i wish you’re missing me to.

The moon is shining so bright tonight... that i feel like singing “There’s a lover’s moon tonight. As i look back over my shoulder, so many souls are in this light but for me there is just one boy.. he’s out there somewhere under the Lover’s Moon...” Mine i am just here waiting, missing and loving you under the LOVER’s Moon.

Day 6: Miles Away

DAY 6: March 10, 2009

Kamusta na ang asawa ko? Haaaay how i miss that message mine. Wish I could receive that message again, but i know it would take a while before i receive that again. Anyways i hope and pray that you had a great day today. Every time I look up the sky i will say Lord please send a bunch of clouds over Ternate Cavite, I hope God hear my request.

In my quiet time this morning these words have stricken me most “The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, and he will make me walk in high hills.” This had made me bowed down in prayer asking God that He will strengthen both of our feet, both of our health and both of our faith as we walk in the path of success. I prayed that with His grace would further equip us for all the uncertainties of life. I prayed that He would continue to comfort us this time that we’re miles apart from each other. I thank God for He has continue to bless me financially, with the HSBC loan that I was able to claim this afternoon this will be a great help for the two of us to save up more for our Wedding.

Mine, though we’re miles apart I want you to know how much i continue to appreciate everything that you have done for me in the past 8 months (almost) and never a day goes by that i didn’t miss your hand that always reach out for me, the way you make me laugh, the little things that you’ve said and done that never failed to make me feel special... haay i miss you Lan... I miss your love...

Day 5: Far Apart

Day 5: March 9, 2009

Ei Mine.. How’s your manic Monday? My Monday did not turn out fine because i had diarrhea before lunch that’s why i stayed at home, but I’m okei now. I was able to jogged this morning, i’m happy to say that i could run longer and farther now. Been a great improvement I guess. This morning HSBC called me and have my loan approved, il be using it to pay off FG Loan, its hard to pay P14,000 a month compare to P3,000 a month. It would be better so I could save up more for our wedding.

I forgot to mention to you have a Friend Request: Piolo Sabili, Carol’s dog. I didn’t approve it yet. I left a message saying that you’ll not be able to approve his request cause your on military training and i told her to wait for the confirmation until you come back. You have a comment from your best friend LJ saying: WAAAH Kalbo..

Before I made my day 5 entry i started doing again our Album. I'll have some of our pictures maybe developed tomorrow so I could finished it before April 20. I’d love to end this entry by quoting this:

“It’s not easy being so far away from you. I miss calling and knowing that if we wanted to, we could get together sooner rather than later. I miss surprise visits and everyday talks about major happenings or nothing much. Everyday that we’re apart, I’m looking forward to when we’ll be together again so I can show you how much i missed you... how much I love you. No matter what (or where), I want you to know that I think of you a lot and i miss your smile.” Miss na Miss na kita Mine.. You’ll be in my heart..Always..

Day 4: Your Love Is More Than Enough

DAY 4: March 8, 2009

Hi Mine.. just arrived from Duba’s Bday party.. How’s your Sunday? I hope that they have given you time to rest. Did you have time with the Lord today? I attended the 2nd worship this morning. I cried during the Praise and Worship especially when they played Lord I Offer My Life to You. I really poured out my heart in prayer on this song. Lifting up everything to Him, You ( the desires of your heart, that He would continue to mold you to be the best son, husband and father ) your physical condition during your training ( i prayed that God continue to strengthen you), our wedding plans, both our careers ( that God would help us to be better steward and servant ), both our families ( that God would deliberate them also and continue to bless them, our financials ( that God would pour out great abundance for us ). And especially I lifted up to Him our unending Gratitude and Praises for granting the desires of our hearts. Mine I wish you we’re able to hear the message but i prayed that Sir Ros, Ma’am Almira and Father have able to share the Gospel for you.

After worship we had our singles meeting for the Singles Night to be held on March 20, 2009. It will be an Evangelistic Event but we decided to make a different approach to this by having an Ice Cream Party ( siempre sa kin naka-toka ang ice cream but don’t worry bayad naman eh.) After that we have had our Dgroup at Pastor Ed’s house since Ade is one of our Dgroup member. We’ve had a great time during our bible study we discussed Isaiah 36-37, how the Lord could answers our prayer even how impossible the situation is. He will defend us if we just put our trust in Him. After D Group I went to Duba’s place for his party. I miss you in times like that Mine when we have fun and bonding with my cousins, and they miss you to as well. The first thing that TJ told me when he saw me is San si Allan? Namimiss ko na siya... Haay anu pa kaya ang nararamdaman ko.

I almost forgot to mention Mine Jon and your Mom called me this afternoon. Your mom wants me to go with her to Ternate on March 21 to 22, they will have a team building daw der, haay mine i wish i could consult you before i say yes. But don’t worry i will not do anything that would lead you to disciplinary action. Sisilipin lang kita, that would be enough for me. Miss na miss na kita mine. I love you so much...

Day 3: Its Ur Love That I Still Crave

DAY 3: March 7, 2009

I crave your touch, I crave your lips, I miss so much the excitement of your kiss and since your gone.. my heart won’t behave... its your love that i still crave... haay mine.. i miss you so much..
How’s ur first Saturday there at cavite? What’s your activity today? Have you able to do your laundry?

It’s been hot today.. id took a bath after my lunch and its funny coz i didn’t use the heater because the water is already hot.. hehe.. After I jogged this morning i cleaned my room then watched 6th sense on Channel 12 (even though I’ve watched it hundred times already) and i found out that ZOLOFT was used by Bruce Willies wife in the movie. I was tempted to use it mine today, in my effort to finished the day but by God’s grace i was able to control myself not to take it. After i took a bath i took a nap and woke up at 2:20 pm, well I wish i could sleep more. I’d went back to watching TV just to get rid of my boredom. Watched the showbiz news on the coverage of the wake of Francis M... Kuya and Kuya Estoy went to his wake, i didn’t know they we’re an avid fun hehe, then they’ll be watching Eraserheads concert. Lanie won the Best Scriptwriter of the Year (an achievement for her), we’ll be celebrating tomorrow as well as Duba’s bday. Assah went to the birthday party of tin galolo leaving the 2 bulilits to me, making me a nanny again. I almost forgot to mention last nyt mama talked to me, asked me again about our plans and i told her na December 12 will be the date of our wedding. She asked kung anu gusto ko hinggin sa kanya.. hehe.. d ko lang masabi P100,000 hehe.

Haay mine i really am missing you.. miss your laugh.. miss your smiling eyes.. i can’t hep but really crave for you. I miss everything about you.. there has never been a moment that i didn’t thought about you. Id never thought its gonna be this painful to be apart from. But like Lanie says that’s part of loving someone. You have to take sacrifices at times. And i thought maybe that’s really the irony of it, for almost 7 months that we’ve been together we never had an arguments that we could not settle in a matter of time. Maybe being a part would really be the greatest trial of our relationship and i really hope and pray that that would be it. May God’s endearing love for us would always prevail in our hearts so that we would continue to stay together. I love you so much mine.. it’s your love that i still crave everyday.

Day 2: Right Next To You

DAY 2: March 6, 2009

Hello Mine.. How did ur day turned out?.. hope it turned out fine...R u drinking ur medicine? Sana okei ka na.. My day turned out fine even though i’m experiencing body pain again. Was not able to run this morning because of my feet is aching again but i’ll try to run again tomorrow so wish me luck. This morning i went to quezon city depot with lilian and make our monthly inventory. Its just a quick inventory because we have to be back ng 1:00 pm sa office because daddy will be using the Prado.

Heat wave strikes the whole day but i kept on praying that the Lord would send as many clouds as He could over Ternate Cavite. I prayed that God would protect each and everyone of you from the sun’s harmful rays. I don’t know if you we’re able to hear the news that Francis M passed away, sad news right.

This afternoon I have once again experience the wonderful grace of God because God had sent someone to share the Gospel in our office. We had our very first Bible Study with the Office Staff and few Production Staff. The message is about the importance of reading the Bible, once again i was able to pray for you, that somehow and some way you we’re able to have quiet moment with the Lord. i know its to impossible but i have faith that God will make a way to talk to you.

Can’t believe that on my second day i would still feel a rush of loneliness, i really do miss you mine. Find it funny and sad as well because everytime my phone beeps i still hoped that the message was from you.. (who am i fooling? Hehe) haay i miss you and me... while i’m driving home and listening to 94.7 the dj asked if there’s a place you want to be right where it would be? I answered.. “Ternate Cavite” right next to you... i miss you so much mine... i love you so much...

Day 1: Till Then Minw

Day 1: March 5, 2009

Hi Mine, how r u na po? Hows your 1st day of training? I hope everything went well, sana d ka masyado nabugbog. Wat tym did u arrived in ternate cavite? How’s your 10 km run? Hows the weather? Hows the place?.. haay.. those are the questions that kept running in my head the whole day.. our very 1st day of being apart.. whole day i had have teary eyes guess because i’m missing you already. Whole day i kept praying that Lord will strengthen you and protect you, especially with your current condition now. I texted your mom asked her kung nakaalis ka na. She replied “Tnx God natuloy din si Allan sa reception, let’s keep on praying for him. “And i Said yes tita..."

I woke up 5 am this morning and the first thing i did is pray.. i brought my cellphone while i jogged around Manila Memorial, hoping that i won’t miss your text or your call but i guess you no longer have the time to do so but i understand mine. I prayed that even if your having a hard time in your training you will still feel the amazing grace of our Heavenly Father. And continue to experience the warmest expression of His love for you in anyway possible.

This afternoon as i went home i decided to write my “45 days of waiting under the lover’s moon journal” (ang haba noh..) hoping that after your training you’ll able to read it.. and by then you’ll give me answers to the question that i’ve mentioned. Mejo napaiyak me when i played our theme song during lunch.. just can’t help it. This is the first time that na maeexperience ko to be far away from the one i love, and ganto pala. But im asking God to strengthen me as i wait under our lover’s moon.

The song Everyday by Agot Isidro kept playing on my mind also, so this where i end my first day by singing to you that song Every Day I’ll Always Love You.. Every day i’m always thinking of you..Everyday.. Another lonely day without you. Mahal na mahal kita...